what to hold back ? where to Balance ??

Like body and clothes
emotions evolve and keep morpholizing,

They enclose the desires
They hatch the dreams
They fire the motivations
They nourish the hope

and

when they evolve
all the subordinates change.

the challenge arises now
what to hold back?
where to balance?

time,plurality,processes and a frame

Dear inquisitive spotter,

I have been on a break  and haven't updated my blog since last few years.

Only because I  had many different EMOTIONS  to live through, many FIRST TIME  topics to ponder about, do lotttttttt of window shopping, nag my younger sisters during  long trial sessions of clothes,jewellery,footwear,bags, etc etc, preparing lists, giving reminder calls, coordinating, random travelling, learning to deal with temperamental traders and enthusiastic cousins, maintaining a repo with the tailor and cook,  watching a few style traits, briefing and self-counseling, jotting down paid bills, spending quality time with close family, indulge in nostalgia and most importantly I was busy observing.

OBSERVING MYSELF.
MY ORIENTATION IN LIFE. 

I still have a long way to go and.....................EXPLORE..........................

time,plurality,processes and a frame 

I was in some competition with myself and time. "I am running out of time"----- was the constant thought and fuel for all my actions. Had gained speed (and scholarships too!) shortlisted for Young India Fellowship 2012 even!
But where was I heading ?
Could it be better along with other aspects of my life?
Why was time slipping out of  my hand?
What was I running away from?
What was I waiting to come to me?

..... am I still waiting??

more churning today and sharing tomorrow.

njy exploring till den.

Tchao
 :)

when things dont work your way !

When things don't work your way'

 

You had thought to explore,experience,learn,lead and inspire! You started slaughtering your identity and belief in order to learn from others and experience! You put your ass hard to make things at your hand work successfully.... and it did!!!!

You gained a confidence that you have learned and that your efforts have worked. You also got chance to lead gaining a new experience. You started dreaming Big this time! Scheduled your dream into  -Budget

                   - plan for action  ........  but in an unpredictable future where 'only the change is constant'' your learnings,intuitions and action-plans failed!

You are feeling low now!

you are also giving a thought to start it all from scratch'. But  what is the assurance that this new strategy will also not fail in future?

IT IS ALL UNPREDICTABLE today!____________and the key is 'today'!!!

For instance  :

                  You are enjoying a deep sea dive, your  frogman (mentor) was right beside you before 10 seconds and now you are on your own without anyone's directions! You have gone blank and your memory is failing to collect all the guidelines and instructions. What do you do?? --pause-- you still haven't lost the control of your system.... just the guide is missing and you need to rethink how to conclude it nw. So now you start exploring whatever comes first to your sight and touch. Your Mind (ur hidden friend) immediately alerts your biological system for your most essential requirements and if at all it misses out..... warning signs occur. Hence when your future is unpredictable, you ACT AT PRESENT MOMENT.

Similarly,

To secure your future, work for today! Secure your  present. Invest in each second of your day with a clear vision at start of each day that you are going to ACT on a small gesture that is making a good difference to everyone's future!!(cz eventually that is your dream to make a brighter tomorrow)

Hence, when future is unpredictable secure your most immediate needs, work for today....njy it ... and nurture your dream!!!

Pondering about the "INDIANESS in architecture'.

what is it that reflects Indianess' to the architectural expression in India in last 20 yrs!

May be 'Culture'/

Which are the ideological grounds observed in architectural expression, wch  hv strongly emphasied the transformation of ruled India into a emerging Powerful nation.

Are we blankly following the European collonial style/modernist approach/merely revivalist approach in Nation's construction. 

Arent we guiding coming generations with same attitude n ideology in mind? 

Are we rooted enough to our orignial manifestation? n wat is ''our original style of expression''? how much is it rational to follow it?

what is and was 'sanyukt Bharat's '' baseline/essence that is/was glorified thro various art expression including architecture!__??

many more confounding questions should arise ...... n hopefully we as Architects_being responsible citizens of our nation,get the answers and qualify the quality of life... hence promote architecture in its best!!"

On Mumbai....

Right since I left Mbai, I felt an urge to write about the city.
But I demotivated myself saying,reading and hearing a looot about the enchanting city by many people like me(NRM)or Suketu Mehta or a mumbaikar!!

Saw "Wake Up Sid" few days back,retrospected MY LIFE THERE and _____ memories started oozing out.


Honestly confessing "while writing acoustic jrnl and watchin movies simultaneously....my mind was laddering me back to days in mmbai.!!

ITs not only fun part of it that pulls me back,but a potpourri of experiences and learnings gained from it.



let me live in that barracking past for some more time! (virtually tho!)
~~sshhhhh.... dnt disturb.

Cz definition of rainbow shud remain same.....

I find myself new each day,

But mystery of life remains d same.

Find varied solutions each day,

But question still remains d same.

I make new friends each day,

But commitments with old remain d same.

New emotions emerge each day,

But pace of life remains d same.

My friends find new faults in me each day,

But my snubbing remains d same.

Faculties criticize my work each day,

But my manner of working remains d same.

I might not express myself completely to u,

Cz for you, the mysticism shud remain d same.

I like no shades of grey,

Cz definition of Rainow shud remain d same.!!!